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September 24, 2010

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  1. Chris Hatfield permalink
    March 16, 2011 11:43 pm

    I think Adam Hebblewhite’s suicide was in the 1980s, not circa 2000?

    • kintsugi permalink*
      March 17, 2011 6:40 pm

      Thanks, Chris. Have noted your comment re AdamHebblewhite.

  2. guest permalink
    April 17, 2011 9:12 pm

    Some more cases taken from

    “Dead scientologists (not close friends, except one) but none the less scientologists we have known)

    1. Tomas Ahrne (age 50+, died 2007)
    2. Jonathan Nydahl (Helena Nydahl och Björn Öhmans son) (Age 19-20, died 2003)
    3. Tommy Jonsson (40+, earlier Bookstore-officer at Stockholm Org)
    4. Dan Lööf (earlier CO at Stockholm Org, 40+)
    5. Anette Westphal (40+)
    6. Torbjörn Regnell (55+)
    7. Per-Ola Lindberg (70+, earlier staff and auditor)
    8. Kerttu Lemmetty (75+, earlier staff and artist)

    Six of these persons died far too early….and had many more years left to live this lifetime….”

  3. guest permalink
    April 17, 2011 9:19 pm

    pls add Bill Robertson (captain Bill), he died of brain cancer

    • kintsugi permalink*
      April 19, 2011 12:32 pm


      Thank you for information about Bill Robertson and eight others.

      I take your point about dying prematurely. Even including Per-Ola and Kerttu, the average life expectancy of this group is only 50+.


  4. Talya Dunleavy permalink
    May 22, 2012 5:10 am

    Corrections: David Ziff seems to be alive and well,didin’t die of cancer in 1994.he is on facebook too,lives in clearwater.Lori Greene Wood came to flag for some review auditing around 1979.A few months after later she died of a punctured lung due to a broken rib.Best regards,Talya Dunleavy

    • kintsugi permalink*
      October 12, 2012 8:55 am

      Hello Talya and thank you for your correction re David Ziff and Lori Greene Wood. This site is not active at the moment but I hope to have time to do an update sometime soon.

  5. June 18, 2012 6:57 am

    Simon Dresner was the very dynamic Case Supervisor at Sunderland org in the 80s and 90s. He contracted MS and began to rapidly decline. The ED of Sunderland org told him, “I don’t want any cripples in my org.”

    He was neglected and shunned by all his so-called friends with only a handful of exceptions, John Morgan being one. Simon’s mother was blamed as the SP causing his illness.

    Simon passed away in 1994, RIP.

    • kintsugi permalink*
      October 12, 2012 8:51 am

      Hi Peadar Thank you for your information about Simon Dresner. This site is not currently active but I hope to have time to post an update soon. Sorry for the immense lapse in communication.

  6. June 18, 2012 2:38 pm

    Hi to Whome – Ever is in charge. My name is Nan McLean Could you please add Walt Curry’s name to this list. He died in a tent fire, and I believe he was murdered (and I’m afraid I was inadvertantly responsible).

    If you need more information I’m available.

    Nan McLean

    • kintsugi permalink*
      October 12, 2012 8:50 am

      Hi Nan. Thanks for your information about Walt Curry. Sorry for the long gap in reply. This site is not active at the moment but I hope to have time to do something about it some time soon.

  7. October 11, 2012 1:46 pm

    P for Don Premarukov who died in a car accident.

    He was the Director of Processing, Vancouver, He had blown . . . .There were some wise cracks from staff that he had “pulled it in”

    He was a kind and gentle soul and didn’t belong in that church, Rest in Peace Don.

    • kintsugi permalink*
      October 12, 2012 8:47 am

      Thank you for your contribution re Don Premarukov. I will pass it on to the editor.

  8. October 13, 2012 10:46 pm

    This is from OCMB, Dr. Shields daughter’s first name was Louisa, and here is the link:

    “Megan Shields’ is a well-known doctor in the Scientology community in the Los Angeles area. Her daughter Louisa just committed suicide this past Friday (11/12/04). She was 18 or 19 and a graduate of The Tutoring School with her whole life ahead of her. She apparently recently had a fight with friends, parents, and broke up with her boyfriend. She was known to be on the quiet side. She hung herself in her bathroom with a scarf and was found the next morning by her younger sister Brenna who is about 15-years old. She left a note saying she was sorry and who her stuff should go to.”

  9. October 14, 2012 2:54 pm

    Please change X Shields to Louisa Shields

  10. October 15, 2012 2:57 am

    Journalist John Sweeney remembers Shawn Lonsdale

  11. October 15, 2012 11:25 pm

    Gitte Mogensen may be the cheerful and lively girl who brightened the London Day Org circa 1972-73. She worked in Div 6 handing out leaflets and getting people in. A powerhouse worker who flooded the Test Line better than anyone I ever saw. Would have been around 20 years of age at the time, if it’s the same girl. German, with good English, we only knew her as Gitte.
    Richard Kaminski

  12. October 15, 2012 11:32 pm

    Anna Hill, née Kaminska, OTV, formerly staff at London Day Org, then public at St Hill, died from cancer, 1997, aged 47.

    • kintsugi permalink*
      October 16, 2012 9:12 am

      Hi, Poet13c.

      This site is not very active at the moment. The Editor (who can run this thing) will be back sometime I hope. Meantime thanks for the info which people can I hope pick up for themselves.


  13. October 16, 2012 1:11 am

    Maria Pia Gardini
    14 October 1936, Rovereto – 23 September 2012

    G for the daughter of Maria Pia Gardini who died on 18 November 1990 of AIDs

    May they Rest in Peace

  14. Amber Branch permalink
    April 5, 2013 11:37 am

    I am interested to know who posted about my my son, Zane Gross, and shares my vested interest in his truth, after death. Also, I was offended to see my few words stolen and then printed here, given there’s so much more to tell. So. Who took my lousy 3 words (including “epic”, and “music”, and made them your own, only to be extremely insufficient to Zane? I wud like the opportunity to rectify this, in Zane’s due honor. Signed, His Mother

    • kintsugi permalink*
      April 5, 2013 2:49 pm

      The original editor of this blog is long gone. I look in from time to time.

      I know that all the information in it came from the Web. If it is incomplete or inaccurate this reflects the original sources. Nothing was added and very little was left out.

      I have checked the Web again for Zane Gross and find only the same one-liner.

      If you have more to publish this would be great.

  15. Joey permalink
    May 6, 2013 6:54 pm

    There were a few other notable Sea Org Member and Scientologist who I knew personally and were friends of our family that both died of Cancer. 1. Karen Brackett Cl VI OT VIII; was married to Steve Brackett who committed suicide also. She was a beautiful person and died of cancer in LA. She was in her early 40’s and had 2 kids; a daughter in a previous relationship and a son with Steve. 2. Jill Burkart-Graham; an SO member Class IX OT VII, died of breasts Cancer. She was a Case Supervisor auditing in the Universe Corps in Orange County Org. What a great gal and full of life Jill was. She had 2 boys. What a loss! for both these caring beautiful people

    • kintsugi permalink*
      May 7, 2013 9:22 pm

      Thank you for this information. The original compiler of this blog has now retired but at some point I will try to make an update.


  16. Olivia permalink
    July 3, 2013 9:00 pm

    Venus Cecelia Rojo did not die of cancer.

    • kintsugi permalink*
      July 5, 2013 12:07 pm

      Thank you for your email. I have recently taken over as part-time editor of this blog.

      You appear to be correct but I can find no existing reference to Cecelia Rojo in this blog. However I picked up an enquiry in ESMB and have added the following entry to the Supplement.

      R for Cecelia Rojo, known as ‘Venus’, 14 June 1980-13 May 1998. How did she die? (ESMB/ESK enquiry).

      • olivia permalink
        September 17, 2015 1:18 am

        She died during a stay at a Scientology school and the autopsy stated that she had an enlarged heart and thyroid problem.

  17. Flo permalink
    September 13, 2013 11:18 am

    You can add these scientologists died french people :

    Michel HOULETTE, died of a lung cancer in 2005, he was clear, the french voice of Lrh. Around 45 years old
    François Parmentier (FRAPAR), bones cancer, died in 2008 juste after OT3, around 55 years old.
    Lucille PODVA, died of ovarian cancer, new OT7, around 30 years old. She was snr CS of the org of Paris (France)
    Eric LEROUTIER, died of lung cancer, arond 50 years old
    Marie-Thérèse DREILLARD, died of a cancer in 2012, on OT 7, around 75 years old
    DE TOCQUEVILLE a brother and sister, died of cancer around 2010

    Some others (OT) suffered from cancer.

    • kintsugi permalink*
      September 13, 2013 8:39 pm

      Hi, Flo. Thank you for the French information. I will add it when I understand how to (!) but meantime people will find it as a comment on the blog.

      • Flo permalink
        October 16, 2013 11:04 am

        Robert LOEB, suicide while on OT7 (I don’t know the death year, fairly recent)
        Maryvonne LECLERC, died of breast cancer in the 1990s after the death by heart attack of her husband Jean-Yves LECLERC. Both were Clear and young, less than 40 years old.
        Gloria LOPEZ, 47, Clear, suicide on dec 2006 (too much debts)
        Françoise CANNOLE after new OT5, breast cancer in the 90s, she was young, around 40 years.
        Hélène MEULEY, OT8, liver cancer, around 50 years old
        Marie-Pierre DELPHIEUX in august 2010, heart problem.


  18. September 17, 2013 12:16 am

    Do you know of a list of Scientologists who have gone psychotic and not necessarily have died?

    • kintsugi permalink*
      September 17, 2013 10:27 pm

      No, but you could try a thread on ESMB or WWP (or both).
      They were normally shipped out as rapidly as possible, and most people would not know.

  19. WhiteWolf permalink
    November 25, 2013 10:54 pm

    Your posting about Kirk Anderson and Yolanda is not accurate as to event sequence. My children were stolen from me by the cult and Kirk, THEN my son was killed by rotten child care provided by the kidnappers PRIOR to my joining the Sea Org in an attempt to get them back. Do NOT put this on me. I was victimized by the cult and lost my entire family as a result. Here’s what you said:

    “A for Kirk Anderson, who came into the Salt Lake City mission one day between July and October 1973 with a shotgun and threatened the mission staff because he believed they were alienating him from his new Scientologist wife, Yolanda who later left for the Sea Org and whose child died as a result of terrible Scientology child care. Kirk was the ED of the Salt Lake mission for years.”

    • kintsugi permalink*
      November 27, 2013 1:10 pm

      Hi, WhiteWolf/Yolanda

      Thank you for your comment about Kirk Anderson and Yolanda. I inherited this site but I know all the information came from the Web. I like to feel it is accurate.

      You have all my sympathy for the loss of your family. I’ll amend the entry to take your comment into account.

  20. February 17, 2014 8:04 am

    To the Editor
    My name is Bonnie Woods. My husband Richard and I have been helping families with loved ones in Scientology for 22 years. Our website is . We currently live in England and are working on a project to inform the Members of Parliament about the dangers of Scientology and I came across your website. May I say that it is a phenomenal thing that you have done. In order to present the information to government officials I do have to put it in a presentation form. If you wouldn’t mind could we be in touch with you about how the names are collated and confirmed. It would be a great help.
    Thank you in advance-
    Kindest regards,
    Bonnie Woods
    If you need to confirm who we are you can google my name and the details of our work will be found on many sites.

    • kintsugi permalink*
      February 20, 2014 7:33 pm

      Dear Bonnie and Richard. I have read about your work and wish you success with it.

      All the information about the 600 deaths listed in TSNHD came straight from the Web. I have no other sources. I am not an ex-Scientologist and know none of these people or their families personally.

      It says much for the various Websites that I have had very few negative comments or corrections from October 2010 until now, and none that I would consider serious. I have perhaps twenty more cases to add. They fit the general pattern only too well.

      If I can help in any way please contact me again.


      • Bonnie Woods permalink
        February 23, 2014 5:19 am

        Dear Kintsugi,

        Thank you for your response.May I reiterate that we truly appreciate the efforts you have made to document these ‘silent voices’. Over the years we have spoken to too many families who have lost loved ones who were involved in Scientology.

        We believe it is time to document that there are lives that were lost needlessly. You have saved us countless hours of work and I respect your diligence. We will be in touch again I’m sure and thank you!

        All the best,

        Bonnie Woods

  21. kintsugi permalink*
    October 29, 2014 8:12 pm

    Sorry but I haven’t the time or the expertise to update this site. Until I find someone to take over it will remain closed. Google is your friend; so of course is WordPress. Once again, sorry.

  22. June 28, 2015 11:33 pm

    what really happened to Aaron Poulin?? I am his aunt. Someone please contact me. He did not commit suicide from what I was told.

    • kintsugi permalink*
      July 12, 2015 10:29 pm

      Hello, Maureen. I am sorry I only have the information given about Aaron which I have tried to copy below. The best place for your enquiry is ESMB, the Ex-Scientology Message Board where someone usually knows the truth.

      All the best, Kintsugi

      P for Aaron Poulin – “just a kid”, who hung himself at the Holiday Inn in 2003. Born and raised in the Sea Org. He was CMO Int messenger, but was demoted to CCI, and was so caved in by that he committed suicide. He would have been about 20 years old. “I heard that he jumped out a window, not that he hung himself, but I would like to get the story first-hand from someone who was there. This sounds like he was a victim of some harsh ethics cave-in tech. It is so unfortunate. He was such a bright kid.”

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